2002.12.12
2002.12.12
transfering over some old stuff from my palm pilot… each is a seperate entry with no connection.
objectification:
i think men too easily objectify the world. this objectification is why men are more commonly murderers and rapists and why afterwards they may not feel any guilt. i think with women… they don’t objectify others as easily; it’s a more personal world for them.
validation:
i get much of my validation -my feeling of worth- from the women i date. some get that from friends and/or family and i know that while they matter to who i am and what i am doing with my life, i won’t be too offended if they don’t like it (what i am doing with my life). but if my girlfriend doesn’t like what i am doing, i’m likely to drop it entirely. i’m like a fucking puppy dog. ruff.
people on the train:
1: the girl with the hair. it’s dark brown and she obsessively twirls it between her fingers, weaving it hypnotically… she gets off at MP and runs across the tracks to get to her car before the train can depart again.
2: the asian girl. she sits on the train replacing tiny bulbs on christmas light strings. she is friendly and smiles at everyone.
3: the blue collar worker. he also gets off at MP. when i get to the station at the end of the day he is already there. he sits and drinks his beer while waiting for his wife. he doesn’t get on the same train, prefering to relax with his beer and talk with friends about his life in general and often brings up his brother, who is seven years younger.
4: the foul tempered man. he is often in the same car i ride home in. he also rides the bus, and if the bus is late he yells at the driver. in fact if anyone even comes near him he seems to get belligerent.
5: the “tight” woman. she seems very stiff until you smile at her in passing. then she smiles back and her eyes say, “i didn’t expect you to smile.” her hair is always in a tight bun.
6: the smoking woman. she is in her late 40s or early 50s and i see her walking to the building next to mine and she always has a lit skinny cigarette. it seems to go well with her peppered ashen hair.
7: the dignified man. his legs are mangled yet he makes his way along the embarcation area with slow, deliberate and focused dignity with his cane in his left hand. his face is not appealling, but the look of proud detirmination makes it compelling and attractive.
those are a few of the things i wrote in my palm about a year ago while idle.
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